WHAT PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND THEY WILL MOCK OR DISMISS

 (LOVING AND ACCEPTING YOURSELF EXACTLY AS I AM IS THE  KEY TO HAPPINESS. ALSO, I ONLY RECENTLY REALIZED THAT I AM NOT IN CHARGE/RESPONSIBLE FOR ANYONE’S EMOTIONAL STATE BUT MY OWN. THIS UNDERSTANDING CHANGED MY LIFE.)

Our heart (+ the physical space around our chest) carry a lot of our pain, trapped emotions, + unresolved trauma.

(PEOPLE DON'T ALWAYS HAVE BAD INTENTIONS, THEY OFTEN HAVE UNHEALED EMOTIONAL WOUNDS. IT IS OKAY TO FEEL ALONE OR CONFUSED ON YOUR JOURNEY!!BUT REMEMBER THAT SELF FORGIVENESS IS THE ULTIMATE GIFT FROM GOD.

WHAT PEOPLE DON'T UNDERSTAND THEY WILL MOCK OR DISMISS, THAT'S OKAY.)

When I started practicing heart centered meditations, I became more conscious to the energy around my heart. And how that energy felt + sometimes was reflected within my posture.

(THAT I HAVE A RIGHT TO MY FEELINGS ABOUT SOMETHING/SOMEBODY. I’M NOT BEING OVER-SENSITIVE OR IMAGINING THINGS. MY TRUTH IS MY TRUTH, THOUGH I’M NOT GOING TO INSIST ON MY TRUTH BEING RIGHT FOR ANYONE ELSE.)

Visualization healing is incredibly powerful. When you just begin, especially if you’ve never focused your awareness on your heart, a lot of emotions may come up.

There might be uncomfortable sensations, or fear-based thoughts that come from unprocessed emotions. It’s important to breathe + be in a space where you feel comfortable + at ease. Allow whatever you feel to be there. Tears might flow. Anger might go through the body. Just allow— that practice in itself is healing.

(THAT JUST BECAUSE I FEEL SOMETHING DOESN'T MEAN IT'S TRUE. THE FEELING IS TRUE FOR ME AND VALID, BUT IT DOESN'T MEAN IT'S ACTUALLY THE TRUTH OF THE SITUATION. AND THAT I MAY FEEL I KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT WHAT THE OTHER IS FEELING, BUT IT DOESN'T NECESSARILY MEAN IT'S TRUE FOR THEM.) (I CREATED MY OWN BOX THAT I THOUGHT I HAD TO BE IN AND TRIED TO PUT OTHERS IN BOXES TOO. AS I'VE FREED MYSELF, I'VE ALSO FREED OTHERS TO BE THEMSELVES TOO. I'M STILL WORKING ON FREEING THOSE WHO HAVE NO SELF AWARENESS THOUGH AND CONTINUE TO BLAME OTHERS.)

I created this for beginners. You can modify or change this in a way that feels best for you.

(ONE OF THE BIGGEST THING I REALISED IS THAT EVERYONE'S JOURNEY TO CONSCIOUSNESS AND AWAKENING IS DIFFERENT. SOME HAVE MORE OBSTACLES TO FACE BEFORE THEY REACH A LEVEL WHERE WE ARE ALREADY IN AND IT'S WHEN PEOPLE FROM THESE TWO LEVELS INTERACT, THEY CAN GO AGAINST EACH OTHER. BUT OF COURSE THE PERSON WITH THE HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS ALWAYS UNDERSTANDS THAT THE OTHER PERSON STILL HAS SO MUCH TO LEARN AND LETS THEM TAKE THEIR OWN PATH WITHOUT HESITATION. AND I THINK THIS UNDERSTANDING AND THE PEACE THAT COMES OUT OF IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL. BECAUSE ANYONE CAN BE AN INFLUENCER BUT KNOWING WHERE, WHEN AND HOW TO SET BOUNDARIES. NOW THAT'S SOMETHING💓)

Give it a try, allow yourself to be connected to your heart. Allow yourself to go within to heal what’s been waiting to be witnessed.

(PRACTICING GRATITUDE TO HEAL, UNDERSTANDING THE PAST MEANS MAKING SENSE OF THE NOW. IT’S OK TO FEEL. EMBRACING SELF COMPASSION. THERE ARE TWO RECENTLY FOR ME. THE FIRST WAS THAT I REALIZED THAT I WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR MY HEALING. REALLY, EVEN IF EVERYONE WHO HAD EVER WOUNDED ME REALIZED AND APOLOGIZED, I WOULDN’T BE MIRACULOUSLY BETTER. THAT REALLY HELPED ME GET UNSTUCK AND GAVE ME AGENCY TO LIVE THE LIFE I WANTED AND ACTUALLY REALLY HELPED ME TO BEGIN TO FORGIVE PEOPLE BECAUSE I WASN’T WAITING AROUND FOR AN APOLOGY. SECOND, I REALIZED THE CRITICAL VOICE IN MY HEAD WASN’T ME. IT HAD ALWAYS SOUNDED LIKE ME AND FELT LIKE MY THOUGHTS (AND OF COURSE, IT WAS MY BRAIN CREATING THEM), BUT IT WASN’T MY TRUE SELF SAYING THEM. IT WAS MY FEAR, MY INSECURITY, ETC. BEFORE I FREED MYSELF, THEN WHEN I HAVE THOSE THOUGHTS, IT FEELS MORE LIKE A RADIO STATION PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND. SO I HEAR IT, BUT I FOUGHT IT DILIGENTLY LIKE A SMALL GOD BY TREATING IT LIKE BACKGROUND NOISE AND SOMETIMES EVEN TURNING IT OFF ENTIRELY.

THAT I DON'T NEEDS OTHERS TO UNDERSTAND OR ACCEPT MY JOURNEY, AND THAT I CAN WASTE PRECIOUS ENERGY AND HURT MYSELF TRYING TO GET THEM TO DO SO, WHEN IT'S ONLY FOR ME TO DO SO FOR MYSELF. NOT EASY WHEN YOU HAVE NEEDED REASSURANCE DUE TO A FRAGILE SENSE OF SELF, BUT IT'S ONE DAY AT A TIME AND I'M LEARNING FROM EACH SLIP UP!)

A Fan wrote to me saying;  Self- forgiveness and self-compassion: 

I am in the process of healing and I thought I was. Until recently, when I fell into the abyss of rumination of the past again after reading a truth-be-told post by a person. It then dawned on me of the circle of people I am with all this time. Three things came to my awareness: 

1. No one knows nor take matter of what I am going through just by reading the post. I am aware that I am inflicting myself with emotional suffering of the past. 

because of that awareness,

2. I write down "Why am I triggered by a mere post that others seem to find delight in? (the person openly admitted that they find pleasure in ill criticising people behind their back). As I was at it, I observed and found one thing: If I am easily influenced by words, then I TOO can be EMPOWERED by words. The shift of meaning comes from what I pay my attention to. 

Writing it down and questioning myself has also shown me to practice self-compassion. It is easier to blame myself for the past mistakes I have done and what I should have done. As much as it is unhealthy to compare ourselves with others, it is also (for me) equally unfair to compare (and blame) ourself with our past self with the realisation or learning of the present. It is like the teenager me blaming the baby me for not able to walk straight.

3. Anchor myself to someone who is higher than me: God 

As much as we are learning in our self-healing and in discovery of our own self, in this journey of healing (thanks to you too, Prince.:) for this blog platform), most of what I personally learnt and resonated with in this page brings me closer to God. As of this morning, for the first time, I feel God not as the invisible, Almighty Being (unreachable, unimaginable, unseen), but one visible, reachable, seen - in the flesh. In that moment too, I was utterly humbled and accepted that I too made mistakes. Meekness though popularly seen to be human niceness, lack of conviction or cowardice, if we shift the meaning to a higher purpose of our higher self, meekness means self-control and strength in suffering. 

That I don't needs others to understand or accept my journey, and that I can waste precious energy and hurt myself trying to get them to do so, when it's only for me to do so for myself. Not easy when you have needed reassurance due to a fragile sense of self, but it's one day at a time and I'm learning from each slip up!

This post from you Prince, untangled the episodes I have been experiencing and now be explained in words. 

Thank you for documenting and reflecting on your own journey. Because of that, it helps many, including me - in understanding my own too. 

God bless you, abundantly for the amazing work you are doing.

(THAT I DON'T NEEDS OTHERS TO UNDERSTAND OR ACCEPT MY JOURNEY, AND THAT I CAN WASTE PRECIOUS ENERGY AND HURT MYSELF TRYING TO GET THEM TO DO SO, WHEN IT'S ONLY FOR ME TO DO SO FOR MYSELF. NOT EASY WHEN YOU HAVE NEEDED REASSURANCE DUE TO A FRAGILE SENSE OF SELF, BUT IT'S ONE DAY AT A TIME AND I'M LEARNING FROM EACH SLIP UP!)